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i got this dream last night!
maybe its a nightmare!
its just like this..
last thursday i think..
me and my classm8s/friends (since 1st year)
were waiting for our guys friend beside the stage..
the we saw my "former" crush infront of the office near us..
he say hi to my friends except me..
i was really sad to see that moment happens!
but i think that he was looking at me when he's
about to get far from us..
i was really sad that time..
my friends keep teasing me..
at the first place, since 3rd yr we doesnt really talk..
and i dont either talked to him unless he's the one who started the conversation..
because if i talk to him or we talk, my classm8s will start to say "uuuuyy.."
bsta mga gnung bagay!
u know when we're 3rd year, my clasm8s really love to teased us!
they even say that we're the best love team.. duhh..
i really dont like him that much..
when few of my girl classm8s including me form an open forum..
they just asked me that (open forum) "if i have a crush in our room..
who would it be??"
i just tell them that it must be HIM because we both play guitars and love bands..
its just like that and different gossiping/teasing started to came up!
i really dont know how to stop the gossips.. waw celeb hehe!
so everytime we're getting close it just turn to nothing..
i feel awkward being with him or just near to him..
it feels like that there is always a barrier between us!
i think things just develop..
he look like sheldon of HALE.. maybe thats the biggest reason why i like him!
but a better version of sheldon huh! peace!
but u know..
at the first day of school he greet me..
he greet me hapi bday! (his bday was june 1 and im june 2, isnt it compatible?)
i just nod and smile at him..
i cant even open my mouth to say i word..
i dont know why..
maybe because i saw my classm8s looking at us..
he even stand beside me.. its really awkward to stand and get near to him!
the following day he call me again at the stairs but i didnt mind him..
nagsumbong p xa dun s isng friend qng guy n d q daw xa pinapancn pti nung 1st day od school..
i have the reasons to snob him, ayt??
and now i know why he didnt greet ("hi!")..
because he's scared to be snobbed again!
hhayyyy..
its really my fault!
i even make a poem about it when we are on our way home..
"ako'y may tinatanaw, ngunit d nmn aq tinatanaw, kaya;t ako'y nasa2ktan..."
bsta gnun un.. may ksunod p un e!
then this saturday midnyt when i was sleeping..
i dream about HIM..
me and my friends including him and other guy friends of us were having a trip..
i think it was in calatagan batangas.. (lea, my friend, always telling me that she's wants me to
go there thats why calatagan is included there) (i believe that the things we dream of are the things
we always think and we always hear!)
we even sleep there..
it was one in a million trip!
then..
the following days in calatagan..
i saw him with a girl, maybe it his girlfriend..
i just dont mind them..
as if i see nothing!
one morning when i woke up..
i saw many heart-shaped balloons and flowers outside out cottage!
i even told to my friedns that i want to recieve that kind of gift.
it was sssooooooooo romantic for me!
then i noticed something written in the balloon..
" happy monthsary ________, lab u!" i forgot the girls name"
i even uttered to myself "grabe nmn to monthsary plng may gnyan na!"
eventually i saw him and the girl together under the kubo typer cottage..
they're sweet.. not kissing huh..
bsta they just look sweet..
i act like nothing happens..
i just smile..
i even tell them that im okay..
but im just a human..
i cant hide my emotions..
i run inside the cottage..
i sat on the bed, putting my face in my palm..
i was crying.. my tears fell from my eyes..
i cant stop it..
i cant smile..
i cant be happy for them..
when i saw them i thought i was going to collapse..
i thought i was going to berak!
i even thought that everything was gonna be fine..
i thought i can control my emotions..
but i cant!
why?
i know that i dont have feelings for him..
but why im feeling like this..
it feels like im waiting for the rain to come in this drought..
it was really disappointing and useless!
i continue to cry even i dont want too..
my heart is aching again..
suddenly..
i woke up (in my real world)
i held my heart!
its still aching..
it feels like it was crying..
i barely hug myself..
i uttered again..
"hayy panaginip lng pla! buti lng panaginip lng.."
its just a dream..
a ****ing dream..
or i can say a NIGHTMARE..
i dont like to see things will end up just like that..
maybe i must forget about him..
its over..
small things always end up into a big things..
STOP! ITS OVER! |
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